Libby’s Lines

Oh wait! That’s us!

More on this later when details have been worked out!

Closure is a good thing. Mostly.

It was good to be with our former church family the past couple of weeks. The purpose was church business meetings to “try and help the church move forward” after these difficult “few” months.

About the meetings… I don’t think that the leadership or the district leadership have grasped the concept of the real underlying problem. There were things said and done that irritated me, angered me, inspired me and made me gasp in disbelief. So, I believe that at this point, nothing will be “fixed” or reconciled and growth will still be stunted for that church. I am not saying that new people won’t come in, I’m saying that people, workers will continue to leave. That saddens my heart.

About the people… it was absolutely wonderful to have contact with them again and hear from most, that we are still loved, well thought of and missed. We’d been hearing just the opposite about a lot of people from there. I’m sure there are a select few that feel that way, but not the majority. It was good for me to hear that the majority understand the issues that have caused a “flock” of people to leave in recent (3) months and that they are “cheering us on” in our new adventures.

I miss these people. I miss those who don’t feel this way. I miss the comraderie that those in that church family exhibit. I pray for the leadership, all of them, and hope that they will truly allow Christ to lead and work among them. After all, that is “keeping the main thing the main thing.”

So, to that church family: I miss you greatly. I love you greatly. I look forward to seeing you someday soon in eternity.

To our new (and temporary) church family: I love you greatly (already). Thank you for accepting us so warmly and quickly. Your spirit has lifted mine. I will miss you when we move.

Do you like to wait? Not me. I can be patient with people, but not schedules. I am a bit of a control freak and I like to know what’s going on when, where and why. When one of these pieces of knowledge is not known to me, it drives me crazy!

I am now fighting down the depression “urges” that keep trying to sneak in. My emotions are all over the scale (and perhaps off it too). I know that having in faith that God is going to take care of us is what is required, but I also know that He requires us to do our part as well and not just sit back with the attitude “Ok God, drop it all in my lap”. We have taken the steps to ensure employment and income, we just don’t have a start date yet and no date of when to expect income to start coming in. This spills over into: I don’t know when we will be moving, so I can’t go looking for a house yet, don’t know what to pack yet, because I don’t know how long it will be, don’t know what to allow the kids to participate in because of timing, etc.

The anticipation of moving is still there, but the anxiety of it all is becoming overwhelming. I get up and start to pack a box and then I think “wait, we may need that before we move”. We probably won’t “need” it, but do I want to pack, unpack and repack boxes in the off-chance that we will? I don’t think so.

It’s just the frustration getting to me. On a lighter, positive note: I have 3 boxes completely organized and packed and have sorted through a ton of stuff and gotten rid of a lot of it! Yay! We are downsizing more and more as we go. It’s good.